However, Abigail noted, that "over time & throwing myself into my healing community, the energy moved" and she was finally able to see the light again.  

"I scheduled my grief & physical care like it was my effing job. Because it was," Abigail explained. "And then…more light came in. And every day something or someone would come along to be a warm glow. I started to get my sense of humor back. I remembered that laughing was an option." 

The Suits star also revealed why she felt ready to tell her story now. 

"I share all this because the ‘pretty & dreamy' ‘living your best life pictures' you see here don't tell the full story," Abigail shared. "They were earned. And if you saw the gal from August 2021 to March 2022 you could never have imagined me here. I didn't. And I'm so proud of myself. For not giving up." 

Now, looking ahead, Abigail is ready to turn over a new leaf and dive back into her passions.  

"My wish for this new birth year is to bring laughter, joy, fun, silly, flowers, dance, abundance, love, ease, magic, presence, seen-ness, being-ness, puns and peace into the world," she wrote. "Leave every one & every thing a little better than found." 

She added, "If you are in utter despair. Keep going, you are not alone. It won't be this way forever. I promise you. You are in the middle of your story. Stay open to magic." 

Following her post, Abigail's close friends and fans took to the comment section to give her a bit of love on her special day. 

Mindy Kaling wrote, "You're the best. Thank you for sharing this," while Olivia Munn added, "HBD love you sm." 

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